On my way to church this past Sunday, there was a sense of gratefulness that came over me. I don’t think I’ve ever been in such a great place in my life (despite last week’s post, lol). I’m not where I want to be yet, no, but I sure ain’t where I used to be and God gets all the glory. Over the past few months, I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflecting and to be able to speak publicly on the sins I’ve committed, the changes I’ve made, and more importantly, the grace I’ve been shown, it just does something to me. I feel like I’m in a season I don’t deserve but at the same time, I’ve prepared for this. I labored for this. I praised and worshipped God for this and I am going to walk in it because it’s what He’s prepared for me!

Things could be a whole lot worse. But I only see them getting better. I may need to slow down and catch my breath at some point, but I’m not stopping the good work the Lord has began in me. It feels good to look back over the process, over the months, and to see a finished work come to life. It’s sooo gratifying. So freeing. So rewarding. In one of the IG/FB lives Sha-Lai and I did, we referenced the story of Cain and Abel and how Cain brought a less acceptable gift to God because He didn’t put His all into it. He didn’t do it with excellence. And because Abel’s gift was accepted, he instantly became envious, which I mentioned likely stemmed from his own shortcomings. And I just want to say, I believe I am in a season of doing things with excellence. Not trying to brag or anything, if I am it’s on the power of God, because Lord knows I shouldn’t be here. Nevertheless, publishing my book has taught me more about my own worth and calling. It’s aligned me even more with my purpose. And it pushes me to want to see what else I’m capable of. I doubted myself for a long time and always had a hard time viewing myself as successful. But now, I’m here. And this is just the beginning. This is just the first, of many. I don’t know where I’m going to end up, but I’ma trust God. (Words from Pastor Medina). I’m going to trust who this process is making me to be because I know with the sins I’ve committed, the changes I’ve made, and the grace I’ve been shown, there’s no going back to who I was before. Only forward moving from here.

Until next time . .