Well, I surely didn’t imagine 2020 being what it was when I wrote the first part to this post a year ago. I remember feeling overwhelmed with what I hadn’t done yet, but looking forward to what God would do with what I did and man, so much has changed. In just a year’s time.

If I’m honest, my heart is overwhelmed yet again as I write this, because this year is not ending how I expected. Despite the tough roads I’ve hit throughout the year, the end of the year always seems to be the hardest. A lot of good has occurred in this year too now though, I want to be sure to acknowledge that. And God’s not done yet. However, what I’m (currently) learning is that God does not care how much we plan, how much time we put into something, or how much we expect things to be a certain way. If there is something He wants done, He is sure to make it happen. No matter how uncomfortable it makes us; no matter how much pain it may cause us; no matter the whirlwind of emotions it sends us through trying to figure out why or how. He is the God of all power and He will do whatever for His will to be done. And most times, if not all the time, it’s better to just fall in line than to question or resist.

I tell you the truth, I don’t think I’ve ever been this uncomfortable. The pain I’ve been feeling, almost unbearable. Nothing physical; just all mental and emotional. The past couple of months have been heavy and honestly, as humans, we can only hold on to so much before we explode. Or breakdown. This final push of the year, God has been doing work to ensure that we(I) see crystal clear. So much changing around me; so much changing in me. I don’t understand it now, but . . if or when it’s meant for me to know, I’m sure He’ll tell me. For now, my only assignment is to continue to seek His word and let Him build my faith.

So my piece of encouragement for this week is the same that I’ve been given myself for the past week:

do it scared.

i really wanna emphasize this so I’m gonna say it again… do. it. SCARED.

We don’t grow in our comfort zones. And we surely don’t grow by not taking risks. Sometimes we(again, I) want to wait until the details are all figured out or until all the numbers add up. Let me tell you, you’ll be waiting. There’s no better time than now. If your peace, your happiness, your joy, is dependent upon one crazy decision—do it scared. I’ve recently made a huge decision in my life that I thought would be a little further off, but again . . there was no better time than now. So whatever that decision may be for you, I pray that this gives you that final push to do it. I’ll be sure to share with you what mine was next week.

Until next time . . .

P.s. thank you to all of my friends that have been there supporting me over the past few weeks. Your support along with the grace of God has kept me and I am forever grateful.

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” - 2 Timothy‬ ‭1:7‬ (‭KJV‬)

““My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” - Isaiah‬ ‭55:8-9‬ ‭(NLT‬‬)

“You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.” - Proverbs‬ ‭19:21‬ ‭(NLT‬)