a hopeless romantic pt.I: Take My Word

Written: Jan 5, 2020.
If I didn’t understand God’s grace before, I definitely understand it now. And it’s sad that it took for me to do the wrong, to sin, to be disobedient, to get it. And truth is, it shouldn’t have to take that. Why can’t we just get it right the first time? Why do we as humans, like to learn the hard way? Why do we believe that we are exempt from temptation and pain or from history repeating itself with us? Why don’t we listen to our elders who have experienced our pains and our hurts, who know the signs and can see them clearly? Why would we rather test it out for ourselves? It’s literally unwise. And I guarantee, one of my biggest lessons from last year was to listen to and heed the advice and counsel from my leaders. And my prayer is that you would now listen and heed the advice I’m giving you. Don’t be like me and do the wrong to have to learn of God’s grace. Just hear me and do it right the first time. Let His word guide and minister to you. It’s true, I promise. You don’t have to go through what I went through to know it. I AM TESTIFYING FOR A REASON. SO THAT YOU DON’T HAVE TO SUFFER THE WAY I DID. The emotional pain, the anger, the mental suffering, it’s not worth it. Yes God healed, restored, strengthened and renewed me, but I wouldn’t even willingly chose to go through it again. On top of that, I have to live with the mistake I made. Nothing is worse than thinking back to the moment. It’s a trigger. It’s almost worst than the moment itself. But thank God for grace. I’m telling y’all though.. do better. Get it right the first time. Matt and Mariah did it. And as much as I strived and desired to go after what they had, I fell (failed). If the signs are evident, call them out. Don’t hope for what isn’t, acknowledge what is and act accordingly. Stand your ground. You are worth it. 

Until next time . .