a hopeless romantic interlude
First, if you’ve read up to this point, thank you! Second, considering where we are in the story, I felt the need to make a quick aside. As I mentioned, when I first learned of the guy’s interest in me, I prayed to God that this would be different than my previous relationships. I sought God for clarity, understanding, and confirmation that this was for me. And in the midst of that, I admit I never found the peace that my then YP said should be present in this moment (referring to the series, How To Prepare For Marriage). Though I was seeking God, I was also seeking satisfaction for my flesh. The fact that things began outside the standard of our leadership should have been my sign that this was not the way for me to go. Yet instead, I persisted in my own way and it took for me to go through til I got what I wanted before I surrendered to God. In the beginning, I was embarrassed to go to my leadership about some of my concerns and at times I simply didn’t want to because I knew the answer would go against what my flesh desired. And the silence I sat in cost me. I say this all to say, God is not a God of confusion. If you are in a situation that doesn’t feel right, a situation full of uncertainty, then you should probably leave it alone and walk away from it. Don’t go towards confusion, yet go towards peace. Trust God and trust that your life is better in His hands. I may be beating a dead horse, but the reason I’m so passionate about telling my story is because I know someone needs to hear it. I don’t know why God chose me but He did, and like myself, we don’t always listen the first time. Maybe you’re not currently dating, but you’re confused about where to go school or what job to take next. The same theory applies: follow peace. As greatly rooted as I was, I compromised my salvation and it was not worth it. So I pray my story compels you to seek God for yourself, to trust and depend on Him, and to get it right the first time. Be open with your spiritual leaders, they are in you’re life for a reason. Now I’m not saying you’re never going to make a mistake; we’re human, therefore perfectly imperfect. Nevertheless, we sure can do all we can in our power to seek after and get as close as we can to God’s perfection.
And that’s it! I love you all and pray you continue to follow along with this series! Stay tuned for Part V coming on Tuesday night!
Until next time . .